it's come to my attention i have quite probably ruined one of my all-time favourite songs. it's not because i've played it ad nauseam since i first heard it and then went desperately google searching until i found out what it was called so i could download and drown in it. i do that with all the songs i love. it's because, unfortunately, it was a bit of an unintentional theme song to my recent breakup.
i should have known, and had i have evaluated ahead of time, i could have pre-empted and stopped myself. but it was such a perfect compliment to tears and red wine that i couldn't help myself.
now, whenever my iPod throws it in the mix, i skip. then i frown, because i truly loved that tune but the memories hurt too much right now. a tale akin to the ex himself actually, although he's not on my iPod.
anyway, this song is too important to me, to let go. i need to remember why i fell in love with it in the first place...
PS: it's also come to my attention that i am still calling my breakup recent. i wonder when that will stop. it probably should have already, it's been more than seven months. maybe by "recent breakup" i mean to say "don't judge, there's a good reason why i'm single".