it's been about four seconds since my last post. well, not four seconds but four minutes.
a deep breath. a thought of someone special (aka my inspiration). a smile.
i feel okay, team. in fact, i feel good. probably shouldn't have started typing so quickly after the phone call. but it was the obvious solution and it's better than crying.
thanks so much for the kind words and thoughts, whichever form they came in.
i've realised something. not sure why i didn't think of it earlier. this is my life. my one life. i'm not going to waste it being sad about the past. i am going to spend it being excited about the future. and, i gotta tell you, i am really, really excited. one day, i'll tell you why.
phew. breakdown averted.