so, i got braces. after about three years of umming and ahhing, i just bit the bullet and did it.
they've actually been on for about three months now.
it's taken this long to tell camelshoes because it's taken this long to come to terms with how i feel.
sounds very dramatic, doesn't it?
and it was a bit dramatic at first. actually, the blowfly sunglasses were on before i even left the orthodontist. operation hide my tears.
it was odd. on the way to the orthodontist i was feeling quite the opposite. i was excited, almost liberated, by the fact i had finally made the decision - such a big, expensive decision.
getting the braces on was painful. seeing my new look in the mirror, more so.
i couldn't imagine enduring that pain - physical and emotional - for 12 to 18 months. like i said: dramatic.
the pain is now sporadic. it's rarely as painful as it was that first week and i've been able to find a way to appreciate the discomfort - it means movement after all, and that's the point.
the vanity? i wish it didn't matter to me. it does. and it will continue to do so. but it's getting better. again, it's about appreciating the discomfort. braces might not be a good look but the result will be.
plus, i am finding great new ways to pose for photos.
|bad decision comes good|